Work-related

So proud of my student today. He was packing his bag at the day end and had placed a book in upside down. He corrected himself by switching it right side up. Plus placing his pencil case and other stuff in the small pocket. Hope teaching him the skill of organization helps him to find and do his things faster.

Just that day, I found him sitting on his chair when the rest of the class was on the floor during Mother Tongue. The moment I walked in, he took one look at me, stood up with his textbook and joined his classmates. It amused me.

Consistent behaviour from me is good because now when he sees me, he knows I'm expecting a certain standard of behaviour from him. At least I'm making some headway, even if it's just a little bit.

When I use the time-timer with him that day, he told me "I like the clock." On the other hand, I sometimes want to laugh because when he sees that he does not have enough time after idling for a while, he will start doing his work very fast and saying aloud that he does not have enough time while looking at me or the teacher.

Another student of mine now happily and automatically comes up to me during recess even when I'm not standing near him, just to say hi and have me see him. He's also starting to be more willing to talk about family matters. It's about time to go into that area with him.

Student no.3 commented to me today (or was it yesterday) - "You didn't come today."

Good beginning! Drive on, steph!

Quarrels

Hate quarrels. Use to try to be the mediator in quarrels but now I just feel so helpless. Have started to ignore and pretend nothing is happening. Surf my internet, do my work and keep quiet. Raises my blood pressure just listening and knowing a quarrel is going on. Stressed.

Every time there is a quarrel, I feel like moving out of the house, slamming the door, doing something violent, scream and shout, hurt myself, throw something somewhere/at someone. The violence I can unleash is scary to me. Don't underestimate my anger.

Need to remember to breathe.

Absolutely Everybody - Vanessa Amorosi

Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody

Everybody needs a little loving,
Everybody needs somebody thinking of them.
Everybody needs a little respect,
And whatever it takes,
I’m gonna get it.

Everybody needs a hand to hold,
Someone to cling to
When the nights are getting cold.
I’m no different,
I am just the same,
A player in the game.

Absolutely everybody,
Everybody, everybody.
Absolutely everybody in the whole wide world
Absolutely everybody
Every boy and every girl .
Absolutely everybody.

Everybody needs a human touch.
I can’t live without it,
It means too much to me.
Everybody needs one true friend,
Someone who’ll be there ‘til the very end.

And absolutely everybody breathe,
And everybody, everybody bleed.
We’re no different,
We’re all the same,
A player in the game.

Absolutely, everybody,
Everybody, everybody.
Absolutely everybody
In the whole wide world.
Everybody breathes,
And everybody needs.
Absolutely everybody.

Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody

Every boy and girl,
Every woman and child.
Every father and son.
I said now everyone,
Yes now everyone.

Everybody needs a human touch.
Everybody, everybody needs love.
Im no different,
I am just the same.
A player in the game.

Absolutely, everybody,
Everybody, everybody.
Absolutely everybody
In the whole wide world.
Everybody breathes,
And everybody needs.
Absolutely everybody.
Absolutely everybody

Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody
Absolutely everybody

Thoughts at bullet train speed

Wanted to write a post but thoughts are flying through my mind at bullet train speed. Thoughts which include things like:

1) my hair is dirty
2) I need to sleep
3) I like teaching children with special needs
4) I suck at teaching them
5) my kid is so cute today
6) argh, lesson tomorrow
7) I need to brush teeth and sleep
8) argh, office is match-making this guy and me together. So gross. I'm not even slightly interested in him (or anyone). It really really scares me so badly I don't even feel like talking to him.
9) I need to read Book 9 of The Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket. Trying to find it now.
10) My school's kids are really talented

Good night.

Random sentence

How come there are people who are achieving so much and also enjoying life at the same time?

Argh. Frustrating.

All I know now is I desperately need sleep. Signs of aging. Good night.

I'm all wet

I'm still stuck on the "I'm all wet" conversation.