Weird work day

Today is a weird day. Work went something like this:

1) Apprehension. Dread.
2) Neutrality. Doubt.
3) Happiness. Ego boost.
4) Brought back to earth.

I also bought a book titled something like "If it's Heartbreak, it can be healed". Oh man, never thought I'd need to ever read this one day.

Testing waters

That day I tested waters with my parents.

me: What if I don't date men? What if I date girls?
mum: Huh?
me: What if one day I bring a girl home and say "This is my girlfriend."
mum: Huh... Don't want lah, not good leh.
me: What if lah. How?
mum: Huh... You like girls meh?
me: What if lah! Cannot meh?
mum: Huh...

Comparatively, all my father said was, "eeeeee". I think my mom will be the one who will not be able to take it, as compared to my father.

Twitter Spelling test!

A fun spelling game! Apparently designed to find out if you have been affected by the usage of many short-forms and fantastic exposure to (too many) spelling mistakes through technology (or specifically, twitter). However, thought that it covered more of common word errors which would have arisen even without technology. Nevertheless, it is fun! See how you score and keep check of your English!



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Got it off Arzhou's blog.

NIE Investiture

NIE Investiture discussion:

me: Not sure whether to go. Feel like giving it a miss because if I go, I still need to pay for the rental of the gown. Kinda wish I bought my gown at my degree Convocation.
SK: No, it would be of a different colour.
me: No, the basic gown is the same blue, only the bonnet is a different colour.
SK: Yar, the bonnet is of a different colour!
me: Yar, then maybe it will be cheaper to rent just the bonnet.
SK: -_-'''
me: Oh hey, apparently the gown is a different design! Ok! I've decided to go for the investiture! (and spend $24 on gown rental. ****) Need to take picture with a gown of different design!
SK: Huh?! You can go for this reason?!
me: hehe.

I like her

Attended my colleague's wedding.

It was there that I saw her, an utterly adorable young lady - one of the 2 singers of a 5-piece live band on stage. The moment I set eyes on her, a smile crept onto my lips, my heart skipped a beat. Oh when she started singing, it felt like I was in love!

Small sized, short hair, casual-chic outfit, brilliant smile and a fantastic voice. She's lovely. What's her name? Who is she? Is she taken?

I like her.

But they say must make friends!

Brother: eh, last time when you go uni (university) got go for orientation camps or not?
me: no. I never go for anything. Go good lah, make more friends.
Brother: My faculty camp is now on leh! I accepted offer late and they never send me anything.
me: Never mind one lah, some people also never go for anything.
Brother: But they say "must go" leh and "make more friends"
me: *sputters & laughs* Then if I tell you to go and make friend with some random person, you will go ah?!
Brother: *grins sheepishly*

(btw, he has already signed up for sports camp. Yar, he's athletic, unlike me, the bookworm/stay-at-home person.)

Good that he joined a camp though. It's always good to know more people.

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I turn 24 years old in 3 months & 18 days.
I have no well-paying job to speak of, no boyfriend, no suitors, hardly any social life, no car and no savings of my own.

On the bright side, I have a roof over my head, parents, siblings, a university education, computer, internet, food, water, clothing, shoes and a job (though a low-paying one, which hopefully will create a big opportunity for me in the near future). Oh I also have a collection of books, a bed to read my books on and membership in my secondary school alumni band. I also have a few pretty amazing friends (although their progress in life makes me feel lousy by comparison, BUT they're still good friends! Haha!)

I also happen to be very stubborn, very egoistic and too sensitive all at once.

Yar, this is so blatantly an advertisement.
So does anybody wants to date this girl or not?

I feel like a billboard advertisement with arrows framed by neon lightings pointing at me, saying "DATE ME! DATE ME!"
Only that the neon lights are not working. Yar, that's basically how I feel.

OK, off to Penang.

See me

I want you to see me.

I want you to see me with my strengths.
I want you to see me when I'm confident. I want you to see me when I'm articulate. I want you to see me when I am smart, capable, achieving, when it seems like I stand above the rest. I want you to see me when I'm kind, when I'm loving. When I'm right, when my ideas are great, when I am complimented. I want you to see me when I am standing up, when I'm standing up after a fall and when I'm trying hard to stand up after a fall.

I don't want you to see my weaknesses.
Don't see me when I'm depressed or when I'm making mistakes. Don't see me when I'm egoistic, hypocritical, back-stabbing. Don't see me when I cringe, cry and crawl under my bed covers. Don't see me when I shout, scream in anger. Don't see me when I curse or when I'm a blabbering idiot. Don't see me when I fail, fail to get up after I've failed and stay down after I have failed. Don't see the scars in my heart. Don't see me when I refuse a challenge, look down on myself. Don't see me do this.

I don't want you to see it, but this is me, so see me. See me in all my strengths and weaknesses. See me when I laugh, cry, love, hate, hug, hate, succeed and fail. See everything of me....

Because it is so difficult to see myself.