Taken aback & surprised.
Pertaining to something, the process is OK, but the after-effects of guilt and loneliness are far too familiar and I hate it. Hate it to the core. And here I was, thinking I was long over feeling stuff like these.
No more, ok. I don't want to curl up in a ball in a corner of the room and shrivel up. There are too many things in the world, still waiting for me to enjoy.